“Why is evangelism so hard?” This is a question I tend to ask myself a lot lately. In theory it seems quite simple. I enjoy discussing every little intrinsic detail of my life to whomever will listen, this includes strangers. However, I do not find myself sharing the Gospel with those very same people. Why? Well, because it makes me uncomfortable. I value my comfort, I go out of the way to maintain it. Again, “Why?” Because I would rather rely on my strength than the strength found when being utterly dependent on Christ.

I don’t enjoy being dependent. It goes back to my desire of wanting control in every aspect of my life.  Why is that do you think? I know I am not the only one who fights dependency. I think  is because when we are utterly dependent on Christ we find ourselves vulnerable, broken and in need. We pride ourselves on being put together and self sufficient. Even in intimate gatherings such as small group. We would rather sit and stare at one another than share our brokenness with one another. Trust me I have been there and man it’s uncomfortable but we bear it because we think it to be the better option. We go through seasons in our life, seasons were we depend on God and grow, and seasons were we depend on ourselves. Which of the two do we look back on and say to ourselves, “I really grew.” ?

I think back on my life and think about the times when I was dependent on myself and how failure was inevitable. Then I reflect on the times where I ceased control and relied on an Almighty Savior and unimaginable splendor was the end result as well as growth.

What does any of this have to do with spiritual multiplication? Honestly it has everything to do with it. To be in a place where we take the Great Commission seriously is a place of dependency on the Lord. I believe evangelism is a spirit-led entity. We hear leading which guides us to who we are to share the Gospel. I find the more subservient we are the better we are at discerning as well as listening to what the Holy Spirit is leading us to do.

I treasure my walk with the Lord. When it is so deeply rooted in your heart and who you are then sharing the love God has for us should be easy. Something we should do with ease because it is the outflow of our lives. This isn’t the case most of the time. I was reading in Romans about Paul and Barnabas and found something really cool in regards to evangelism. Romans 15 18-20 ” ¹⁸ I will not venture to speak of anything except what Christ has accomplished through me in leading the Gentiles to obey God by what I have said and done—¹⁹ by the power of signs and wonders, through the power of the Spirit of God. So from Jerusalem all the way around to Illyricum, I have fully proclaimed the gospel of Christ. ²⁰ It has always been my ambition to preach the gospel where Christ was not known, so that I would not be building on someone else’s foundation.” Paul was giddy to share the Gospel. He knew why he was here on earth. He knew he was to be obedient to what God had called him to do. We all have been called to share the Gospel.

Katie